......

Broken hearts are never healed.
They haunt us for a lifetime even if we find someone else.
Our past teaches us lessons that make us more aware and more human.
Why then do we feel so hurt knowing it can only get better?
Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the toughest decisions any of us will ever have to go through.
Dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy.
We just have to live the days as they are set out
All of us have had a broken heart.
Even if it was a childhood sweetheart who left you for another boy who gave her a lollipop or a ten year marriage ended by adultery and not live in the past

Thx for the advice n support

from:-

Vanessa Cheah (4 妹)
Annie (3 妹)

Mei Whei ( 6 妹)

Yvonne Tan ( 5 妹)

Suki Yap

Brandon Chin

Ah Han

Andrew Yap

Barry

Chris Eau Choong

Kang Pei Deng

Lidi Yong

Ben Oh

n many more~

Sorry i cant list all the names out once

Ben Oh,

U r right~

He nid God's slap to wake him up as u said

N u told me de things all i had in my mind

I'll stay strong de

Thx~

~Loveee all my 6 妹妹~

=]

2day,

I din went to skul

I'm juz like a half dead person

I juz lock myself in the room

N cried as long as i wanted

..............................................

I heard something from Barry

Tat VL gonna find a new target

N i was totally freaking it out

Wat the hell~

Yesterday,

U said tat me n u nid some time

Then now u said u wan find a new target

Do eu reli know wad's my feelings was now??
I think i'm giving up on you adi

I cant stand the way eu treat me like tat anymore

Is time to let other ppl who was truely love me de to take ur place in my heart

I tot i already let eu down

But i found out tat's wasn't true

I'm juz lie-ing to myself

When i look at his pics

My eyes will filled with tears

N my heart was in pain

Tis was my first time tat i felt like tat

i reli cant stand up anymore

Everynite i had a flashback of our days

*Tat's hurts*

From now on,

I will slowly de forget our past

I will stand back up

I dun nid BOYS anymore

I will try n let u down

I dunno wanna rmb our memories anymore

I wan a BRAND NEW DAY

Old thing dun let it go

New thing won come

STEPHANIE!!

YOU SHOULD STAND BACK UP

DUN BE SO WEAK!!

U HAVE TO BE STRONG

DUN WEI LE HIM THEN HURT URSELF

U STILL HAVE MANY CHOICES

NOT ONI HIM

SOMEDAY HE SURE WILL REGRET

LIKE WAT DOES UR BF SAID NOW

THEY SAID THEY ARE REGRET AFTER BREAKING UP WIT EU

LET HIM FEEL THE SUFFER

LET TAT GAL PLAYED HIM

LET HIM KNOW HOW HURT WAS IT

U CAN DO IT!!

!!!GAMBAHTEH!!!

You know wad??

You juz oni know how to ignore me

U din even care about me

Ya~

We reli dun like any other couple

Is becoz of eu

Did eu wait me be4 skul finish??

Did eu always come n find me??

Did eu always accompany me??

Well,

Now u said tat i'm close minded

But u din even said anything

Then u say me like tat

I reli dunno wat i did wrong!!

Blocked me from ur FB

Great~

U always like tat de

I so hate it

Mybe we reli aren't ment to be together

Although we have same opinion n everything

U dunno i adi ''rang'' eu many le

Every couple aso be wit their partners

But you??oni be wit ur frenz

I tot someday you'll wait for me be4 skul finish

But everything was a dream

Now i had woken up from this dream

I love eu so much same as eu hurt me so hurt

I knew eu loved me

But u juz dunno how to appreaciate a person who treat eu so well

Terbalik eu say me back

Zadao lo~

Its okay~

U dun appreaciate me

But others ppl will

p.s VL,we cant be couple but fren aso can do bah??

I....reli...speechless

Can i shout now!??

Y muz eu treat me like tat!??

Am i bad to eu??

Do eu know wat mean serious??

I'm serious wit eu

But u juz keep like ignoring me!

2day,

Ming ming he saw me but he act like din saw me

N straight went to toilet

*listening*

Raymond Lam- Love is Not Enough

I reli dunno wat to do now

I reli very confused now

I reli very empty now

Wat should i do??

Y everytime i truely love a guy

then the guy muz treat me like tat??

I dun love those ppl then they treat me so gud??

Arghhhhhh!!!!

U seems doesn't care about me,us,our relationship anymore

Barry said de rite~

I sad,cry,cut myself,hurt myself

U aso won know n won care about

....................................................

Juz now i post a comment on his wall

N he deleted it dy

So??Means??

Haix~

..............speechless...........

Dun wan write jor

No mood

OMG!!

I love Marie Cat so much~

But it's hard to find it

Oni have Kello Kitty more

=[

Too bored so i came to blog again

He off9 adi

N he was where too busy i think

>.<

Always like tat de

.........................................

I wan to celebrate my b'day

Wit u

*if u willing too*

Next monday,

V planning go to Jusco for movie

''THE HOLE"

But u said u gt exam

Next wednesday,

Go Layout,Pavillion,TS

N SW

Force to go SW for Yumi b'day present

>.<

Eeeee

My xiiao mei makes some rules for us when at SW

Wow

Rules:

1. No roller

2. No kap zai or else

3. Dun leave each other behind

4. Dun talk to others ppl

>.<

Raining now~

Where r u??

Aaaaaaa!

Gonna get crazy~

I wan us to be juz like last time

I dun wanna change anything

I love you laogong

I'm so down now~

I'm so empty now~

I dunno why

=[

We juz like fren more than a couple

I felt tat i'm being left behind more than by urside

*headache*

You won find me untill i find you

Juz like sms~

I dun mind eu din find me

I dun mind if you dun call me

But......haix.......

2day,

I finished skul at 1.30pm

Went back home dy

Then i should be saw a msg from eu

But din~

So i sms to you

But u din reply

N i knew tat u gt on9

*at skul aso can on9??*

Wow~

We recess at different time

Everythings was so different now

We aren't like last time anymore

Tat's feelings changed

T.T

..................................................

Speechless

...................................................

I need you by myside

I need you when i'm unhappy

I need you when i'm bored

I need you every single time

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

=[

I'm so down now~

Be4 skul finished,

I saw u were with ur frenz

But i dun mind

Coz i finished class at 1.30pm every monday

>.<

Hate it~

Haix

p.s Babe,

Are frenz to you more important??

ii ♥ eu~

If I had a heart I'm sure it would say
How lonely its been since you went away,
With no one to snuggle and no one to hold.
I guess I'll adjust, or so I've been told.
It's hard to sit back as the line seems to grow
And watch all the flirting, when deep down I know
There's nobody there who can know your heart
Or feel your thoughts even though apart.
To know your thoughts with just one word
Without the others being heard.
To feel your heart and share what you love
Like some magic secret from up above.
The music flows and so do the smiles
From you to them across the miles.
Even our songs that were special there
Are followed by smiles for all to share.
I guess it's me...
I just don't understand
You told me you loved me and held my hand.
How can I trust anything you say,
When I'm yesterdays news the very next day.
If I had a heart it would beat in place
Instead of having this empty space.
And yours would beat along with mine,
And I'd be yours til the end of time.

The Mines wit Jimui

25/9

Today was Wei Key's B'day

^^

Went to Pizza Hut for breakfast with them

N then go watch movie lu

Here's some pics

Wei Key n me♥

Miki & Stephy♥

MeowMilk Forever♥

Us all~

Haix~

Babe,

Y u treat me so different than last time de??

Seems like u dun love me anymore

Or something else

=[

I felt so sad

I miss eu so much♥

But u seems very busy

But i dunno wat r u busying about~

U reli buzy or ...??

>.<''

I wan two weeks ago de you

But i aso wan now de you

Without treat me like tat

I tot today i can go dating wit you

But u told me tat u r on ur way to TS

Then Gym pulak~

When will my phone appear our pics on my wallpaper??

I mean when will my phone have our pics??

So hope it~

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

p.s Babe,ii ♥ eu always n forever

Can eu??

Dunno when will u treat me like last time le

Tat v can chat,laugh,smile n many more

........

Last nite,

I was hugging my pillow n looked into the sky

While my phone was playing a song

Named ''Wouldn't Change A Thing''

I was cried badly untill non'stop
Summore,

I flashed back our hapii memories in those two weeks

N this morning i opened the song again

N my eyes was full wit tears again

T.T

VL,

I reli din fall in love wit a person so deep be4

I even asked myself tat will i be a gud galfren to you
N now i oni knew tat i love eu more than i love BH

But u seems cant get my feelings

I din even cried for him till like tat

............................
2day,
I went to class n put my bag

Then went to toilet

Be4 reached the toilet u r infront of me

But i din looked at you

Then u walked away like you din notice me
Coz i dun wanna let you saw my eyes fills wit tears

I went out again n saw u again

But u seems din wan to talked to me

So i walked away

Back to class,

Nicholas scolded Pn.Wun

Coz she said we all pakat for something

...............long story...............

Fight untill go Bilik Disiplin
>.<

Science period i was so moody

N frusted

Then Math period I was copying the exercise

N suddenly u walked pass by
But does it means Yes for together

Or No for not together??

I knew u got on9

But u din reply my FB msg

=[

Haizzzz
Do i felt invisble to you~

Be4 finished skul,

I saw u walked wit ur frenz
But.......nth......
I try to think tat should i face to face wit you n talk??

But y dun you find me n talk??
Y muz always me first??
=S

Everything to you was juz like a dream??

But wasn't to me
Coz i ♥ you

Although we are not together

But i'm still waiting for ur answer♥

Dun scare tat u will HURT me

Coz i will accept any answer from you

At least you're hapii then enough dy

Not much 'yao qiu'

You hapii then i will hapii

But u din even talk to me since last week

I miss ur voice

I miss ur laughter

I miss you badly

=[
I stared at the phone since last week till today

But you hasn't called

I cant wait for ur call

I cant even wait to answer it~

T.T

2morrow,

I gonna go Mines with my frenz

But i dunno will you go with me anot

Arghhhhh

Stephy u're gonna get crazy soon

''Love you till crazy''

Remember??

Now i'm~

I reli will do everything for eu

Cant eu see it??

p.s VL still remember this song

>>>Christina Aguilera-Hurt

You r the oni one i loved

I swear~ ♥

I love you so much VL

=[

This was the answer

T.T

I think i won gonna love a person again like i did on YOU

I'm sorry

=[

U doesn't know the truth about all those word

I din said to eu

I'm juz telling those other FB guys

But u took it serious n u misunderstanding it alot

*Crying now*

I'm not saying to u tat i love my single life

U can ask my frenz

If u dun believe me
...........................................

I love eu

.............................................

But i dunno can we start all over again??

Its depends on u now

Coz i dun wanna force eu

Its okay if u dun wan

Coz hurt de ppl is me not u

But dun lie me bocoz of u dun wanna hurt me

k?

p.s I love eu oni VL~

Pls dun misunderstanding me

I won do tat to u de

I swear

..........

Wat should i do now??

I do everything for eu

But u din even gave any respon to me

Does u know how hurt was it??

Although when i'm blogging now

But u doesn't knew my eyes was full wit tears

While listening to ''Wouldn't Change A Thing''

I dunno why~

This was the first time tat i have tis feelings to eu

I miss eu every single minutes

But its end up with a dream juz like tat

=[

If u dun love me adi can u pls tell me

N let my heart break??
Not i wan eu to avoid n ignore me

Doesn't eu feel hurt if i does tat to eu??

Haix~

Wat i should dooooooooooooooo??

Is time for me to give up??

Or still maintain to be like tis??

I reli dunno why u treat me so different dy than last two weeks

Last two weeks ago,

We have so much fun together

We mostly spends times together

But now we face to face

But we dun see eyes to eyes

Like fire and rain

But i cant stay mad at you for everything

Coz u're the harmony to every song i sing

I cant forget how we talked on phone wit the sounds of joy anymore

Here's some question but i knew u won answer me

Although i reli reli wanted to know it

Is tat the last call from eu to me already??

Is tat the last day we've hold each other hands??

Is tat the last day i called u babe??

Is tat the last day we ate together??

Is tat the last day we walked together??

Is tat the last day we talked,smiled n laugh??

Is tat the end for both of us??

I ♥ eu more than every single breath i have

But y muz eu treat me like tat??

I'm so regret wat happen tat day

Juz a misunderstanding then its make us so cold adi

This thing is breaking down

We almost never speak

I don't feel welcome anymore

I stare at my phone every single minutes for ur call n msg

But.....

Babe,

Do eu still remember wat u've told me last week??

U said tat u won ket anyone harm me

N many more??

You tell me that you love me then you cut me down

Well,

I get so confused and frustrated

Forget what I'm trying to say

You tell me that you want me then push me around

p.s VL ii ♥ eu now n always will

ii miss eu

T.T

Camhore♥

Camhore again♥
But i miss eu more

>.<

But u dun li me dy~

Haix

Sad nie

I ♥ eu

2day,

Was very unlucky

Get cane from teacher

Arghhhh!!!

Pain dou a~

Then saw HIM at oppsite my classroom there

Then HE walk pass by

I was very happy

But...juz saw HIM once oni

Then no more le

Cant find HIM

=[

Sad~

I dunno wad he's thinking

I reli wanted to cry dy

Be4 skul finished i find HIM everywhere

But i din get it

Then my mum told me tat she saw HIM walking wit a gal out from skul

T.T

Hurt by a song

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were, but I walked away

If only I knew what I know today, ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms,

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again

Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance

To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh,

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

Speechless♥

Wouldn't change a thing~

It's like he doesn't hear a word I say,
His mind is somewhere far away,
And I don't know how to get there,
It's like,
(She's way too serious)
All he wants is to chill out,
(She's always in a rush)
He makes me wanna pull all my hair out,
(And interrupting)
Like he doesn't even care,
(Like she doesn't even care)
You,meWe're face to face
But we don't see eye to eye
Like fire and rain
You can drive me insane
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
We're like different stars
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing
She's always trying to save the day
Just wanna let my music play
She's all or nothing
But my feelings never change
(Why, do you try to read my mind?)
I try to read her mind
(It's not good to psychoanalyze)
She tries to pick a fight
To get attentionThat's what all of my friends say
(That's what all of my friends say)
When I'm yes, she's no
When I hold on,he just lets go
We're perfectly imperfect
But I wouldn't change a thing, no
But I can't stay mad at you for anything

I ♥ eu

I miss eu

Everysec♥

Everymin♥

Everyday♥

But u kept ignore me

N i know u dun

I cant go out always like u do

I nid to ask permission from mummy

But u seem love outting gals

But i'm not

Haix

>.<

When i love a guy 100% then it ends up

Tat he was juz playing me

Are the God playing wit me??

Y??

Are single life to me better??

I juz wan a guy to love n treat me well

Loyal to me

Won play me

Is tat hard??

Miss eu♥

Haix~

I reli kindda miss eu de lo

But i think u won know lo

=[

Coz u oni know how to avoid me

Blame me

Angry me

Terbalik is u misunderstanding me

All i do u aso dun understand lo

Haix

Y cant u care about my feelings??

Y cant u love me??

With ur true hearts

But...

End up its empty~

Camhore again~

wad i do when i'm bored??

Tat is...

BINGO!!

The answer was camhore~

^^

Long time din take pics dy
Mizz it so muchii~❤

Please~

Ignore my face

>.<

I dunno where i looking at...

Mybe looking at ''lengzai''
Haha~

Ytd took tis pics

But left 1 guy

He went back adi

Then v have nothing to do so v took pics

Firstly,

V took Miss Fadilah won let

But She let

@.@''

So surprise lor...

I dunno wat to write anymore

Coz i'm excited♥

Cant wait for 925!!

Yeah♥♥

Tat day v sure take many many pics~

Love is BLIND

But i hate LOVE

Coz it was HURTING more than LOVING

=[

I reli ♥ HIM

N he treat me like tat?

N gave me a stupid reason

I dunno all those days u wit me tat time

U reli love me or wad?

Haix....

I felt so confused today

So frusted leh

Dunno wad to do

I'm sorry to u

Coz i reli cant accept another relationship yet from now on

Becoz i still haven let him down

=.=

I dunno wad happen

My brain n my heart so empty now

Helpzz

I reli dunno wad i reli wan

Yerrrrr

Y muz tis happen to me?

Y??

Can i knew something??

I kept thinking of it

Am i the rite gal for eu??

U fall in love wit me in these few days??

U love me coz of wad??

Any reason??

Not i dun trust eu

Is i juz wan to know it oni

I love freedom 1

Can u gv me freedom??

Will you??

Hmm....

U r soooo hyper active than me

>.<

Lolx

Dunno how to say dy tim

Aiksss

Off ♥

2day,

Off day♥

N i woke up at 10am

Haix

1st things i does tat was looked at my phone

But he din even called or sms me dy since last nite

The last msg i replied was 'ya'

=[

*Arghhh*

I wanted to asked u these

But i dun dare

Coz everytime i asked u something

Then u said i dun believe u

Like Boon Hau did

Are all the boys are the same!??

T.T

Are u reli love me??

Do you??

Mybe last nite i said

"I'm sori about it but i think every single couple aso wan their freedom too although they r couple-ing''

Is tat hurt to u??

Sorry babe♥

I dunno~i'm sori

T.T

I ♥ EU

Sorry♥

Sorry

I didn't mean to make you cry

Lonely,

I feel so lonely

But I need to say goodbye

So many times I tried,

I tried to tell you why

Why I didn't love you when I choose to lie

Somebody else is there

Is watching you, watching you

Running from your love, your love

If I have to live my life without you

I will tell you the truth

Cause you maybe try to leave your life behind you

And somebody else will come around you one day

You will go on but she will beg you to stay

Do you believe in me?

Please do!

Bye now

I want to find my happiness

Somehow I want to tell you

That I tried to do my best

So many times I tried,

I tried to tell you why

Why I didn't love you when I choose to lie

Somebody else is there

Is watching you, watching you

Running from your love, your love

If I have to live my life without you

I will tell you the truth

Cause you maybe try to leave your life behind you

And somebody else will come around you one day

You will go on but she will beg you to stay

Do you believe in me?

Please do!

Somewhere, a voice calls, in the depths of my heart
May I always be dreaming, the dreams that move my heart
So many tears of sadness, uncountable through and through
I know on the other side of them I'll find you
Everytime we fall down to the ground we look up to the blue sky above
We wake to it's blueness, as for the first time
Though the road is long and lonely and the end far away, out of sight
I can with these two arms embrace the light
As I bid farewell my heart stops, in tenderness I feel
My silent empty body begins to listen to what is real
The wonder of living, the wonder of dying
The wind, town, and flowers, we all dance one unity
Somewhere a voice calls in the depths of my heart
keep dreaming your dreams, don't ever let them part
Why speak of all your sadness or of life's painfull woes
Instead let the same lips sing a gentle song for you
The whispering voice, we never want to forget,
in each passing memory always there to guide you
When a miror has been broken, shattered pieces scattered on the ground
Glimpses of new life, reflected all around
Window of beginning, stillness, new light of the dawn
Let my silent, empty body be filled and reborn
No need to search outside, nor sail across the sea
Cause here shining inside me, it's right here inside me
I've found a brightness, it's always with me

Stephy's Life

9/9/10

Is my happiest day

^^

Coz i work till 11.30pm

Then we all played

Untill non-stop

Haha♥

Then,

These few days break time

Vincent accompany me

N i accompany him too

Fun fun fun ♥

2day,

I worked at 3pm till closing

My bro said tat today v all agree to take pics leh

>.<

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

K nar

Gtg

ByeBye ♥

Long time no blog jor

Kelian my bloggie

Cum mami sayang♥

I so miss eu

T.T

Sei Doojoon,

I swear i won find u anymore!!

Arghhh

Vincent Loo,

U owe me a tea time

^^

Lolx

2day,

Vincent asked me to accompany him to eat lu

We talked n laughed

We so much same type

Everything he like same as me

N everything he dun like

I aso dun like de

♥♥♥

He dun like SW

But he like Pavillion

Haha

High class ppl♥

Wow

But me n him??

Impossible lar

Coz...i cant think of he will fall in love wit me...

Chec...

Dreaming la u

♥Stephy 4eva♥

King of the Swing♥

Fuiyoh!!

Miki n Me aso cant do it lo

Scared

>.<

King of the Swing

Not King of the Pop

Haha~

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Tada...

3/9/2010

Tat day was 3/9

After tuitio went to Miki's house

Play time for us

^^

+ v camhore

With Kenneth too

Fun n happy

=]
Here's some pics

Still have more in Miki's camera

Will upload next time

*Be patient*

Miki n Me♥

Testing~

Weeheee♥

Testing again
^^

Kenneth curi take

>.<

Eeeeeee~

♥♥

Love♥

Milky Twins always together

Foever n ever♥

Take 1~

Take 2~

Play shadow♥

Going to another place for camhore

♥

Miki n Me walking

But Kenneth cycling

Unfair♥

>.<

V two exercise

Take 3~

Take 4~

Curi took a shoot

^^V

She's gonna kill me later♥

Fuiyoh!

Looking at wad a??

^^

Kenneth's pose♥

While he said

''Siong dong lin ngor hai gam yong geh''
Haha

But Miki n Me took his pics

While he din knew it too